a valentine post: the hurt and the loving

It was new year's eve. she, being one of the young teens on the neighborhood was asked to take part of the new year's eve celebration for the children. Having no close friends, she still corresponded to what was asked of her. She enjoyed the event with the neighbors of the same age as hers, and to her surprise, that event had became the start of something new.

The closeness sparked and the friendship bloomed. The days were spent on badminton, volleyball, or scrabble tripping. There have been times they talked for hours sitting on the gutter of the street or on the side of the tricycle. And they talked about anything they both interest, from the current TV show to what's new on school; from what's up with the stars to revealing their own problems and views in life.

Her heart is juvenile, making her realize that his kindness had already created an intense charm towards her. She silently loved as she thought this will continue the friendship. Until the doom's day dropped in, as if she had awaken from her fairy tale. Everything ended on the day of discovery. In a tick of the second hand, all things went back to negative infinity.

But the end was not the real ending. That something stayed for years creating a difficulty of letting go, of moving on. The hurt caused by the little time together, the one-sided feeling, and the unknown part of their picture which is his', was locked for an unapprehended reason.

However, she eventually realized that all things must come to an end if there is no reason of holding on. And that special year, 7 years from the past, is something worth remembering. Worth remembering, not of the pain but of the love that had blossomed.

The end.

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ang kwentong yan ang basehan ko ng kung anu ang ginagawa ko ngayon. Alam ko kung bakit dapat ako tumahimik. Maliban sa natatakot ako na maulit ang mga bagay bagay kahit ba wala akong kasiguraduhan dun, ako kasi mismo ang puputol sa sarili kong kasiyahan. Alam ko din kung kelan dapat akong sumugal at malapit na yun. Gagawin ko ang nararapat sa panahong sa tingin kong inde ko panghihinayangan. Pero lahat ng alam kong yun eh isang malaking BAHALA NA. Kung magtagumpay ako, eh di mabuti. Kung inde naman, ok lang din. Yun lang. Kaya, hangga't inde pa dapat, SSSSSSHHHHH.

Happy Valentine's Day sa lahat. <3<3<3<3<3<3